I went to yoga last night.
Filled with some big questions I am facing about my life, my future.
And as we went through our yoga poses, our teacher invited us to not move quickly from pose to pose, but to ENJOY THE TRANSITION.
She expressed how we often move quickly from one pose to another, but there is a rich path from one position to another if we take the time to notice.
I could only reflect how uncomfortable we are as a culture and society with transition and how I am struggling with that particular discomfort in myself.
Living with big questions is uncomfortable…I want to get to the next pose NOW!
I want to have specific answers immediately…
But for now, the simple answer is, I DON’T KNOW.
I’m in transition.
I know I’m leaving a certain ‘pose’ and I’m shifting, but I’m not exactly sure where it will take me.
And for now, this particular day, that’s all I need to know.
As I allow myself to ‘be’ in the midst of a transitional phase I’m reminded of that wonderful quote by Rainer Maria Rilke:
‘Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
It is easy to get uncomfortable with each other when the answers are not clear. I want to find answers for YOUR questions. I don’t want you to be uncomfortable either. But does that not speak of my need for certainty not only in myself but everyone and everything around me? It surely doesn’t help you in your questions. Sitting with another persons discomfort in their transitions isn’t easy, but what a profound gift that can be when you find someone who isn’t pounding you with ANSWERS to your questions – but rather, helping you ‘live into them’.
What I know for sure is that when things are unclear, if I am patient and steady, what is unclear will become clear. If I keep an open heart, a trust in the goodness of the Life living me, then anxiety can turn into curiosity. Fear can block my hearing…and so the daily invitation is to move towards Love. Can I trust Love in this place of transition? Can I trust Love in the face of your transition also? If I really can trust Love, then I don’t have to fix your problems, I can just walk beside, believing with you in the goodness of LIFE flowing in you and that the answers will emerge.
Is it like Bob Dylan said? The answers are in the wind? The image of the answers in the wind speaks to me of the way in which the answers come – softly and with mystery – if we are open and paying attention, staying curious with trust. On a bike ride this morning with my father, he reminded me of a scripture in Romans 10, that what we seek may not be so far beyond us, but perhaps right in the fabric of our own hearts.
My father said, ‘listen to your heart.’
Jungian analyst, Marion Woodman writes in her book, The Pregnant Virgin, “Birth is the death of the life we have known; death is the birth of the life we have yet to live. We need to hold the tensions and allow our circuit to give way to a larger circumference.”
Transition is not an easy place to be.
It is a place of death and birth.
Discomfort and comfort.
Questions and Answers.
Uncertainty and trust.
Letting go and opening up.
And in this place of transition, there is POTENTIAL that wasn’t there before. When something is in movement, it has potential to travel, to become, and to shift in a way that was impossible when it was secure in a pose.
In studying many people who have led interesting lives, I have come to realize that all of them have yielded not only once but many times to these transitional moments. They had to let go of what they thought life might look like and continue to open to new possibilities, allowing the formation of the chrysalis to come upon them so they can emerge as winged creatures.
The leaf eating, earth crawling caterpillar has to become complete mush and lose all form to transition into the nectar feeding, sky flying butterfly it becomes.
There is potential in the transition. Even if it is dark and unclear. Darkness is where all great things are formed. It is not to be feared, it is to be welcomed.
And so if you find yourself in this place with me, I invite you with me to yield to this wonderful, crazy, disorienting place of trust….knowing that the One Who Loves Us Most is breathing with us and breathing in us.
Let’s listen …deeply…to the deepest fabric of our hearts ….
Aren’t you curious what is around the corner?